Day 005 – Too Much Thinking

Welcome to day 5.

Firstly, yesterday I got out my yoga mat and decided it was time I started exercising to maintain flexibility. Turned on the Nintendo Wii and put in the Fitness First yoga disk.

Today, I had an exercise hangover from the exertion and the lactic acid in my muscles contributed to a headache.  Even with a couple of headache tablets the thumping was still there chastising me for being so thoughtless not to continue yoga as part of my regular exercise regime.

On the whole I wasn’t feeling well and was keeping my activity to a minimum – basically sitting on the couch feeling sorry for myself.

Let’s see what the cards had to say about my day.

The first card out is the card of Maturity. As the card implies it’s a point of satisfaction or when one has reached a certain confidence in their abilities.  For me that’s true because I can at least get a post onto a website now :).

It’s interesting to see the Harmony in the Influence position.  This would mean that the maturity I have gained comes from a place of peace and ease instead of say… frustration.

In the Goal position is Morality. Because I am aware of my situation as opposed to reading for someone else, I’m going to differ from the Osho interpretation.  Except Osho highlights that this card is about being prim and proper and following what is expected by society when it constrains who we are.  Sometimes I read this card as someone wanting to do things “properly”.

For instance, I would like to edit my website in a proper way rather than winging it.  As a snow ski instructor said to me, there are two types of skiers those that can survive the mountain and those that can ski the mountain. This was in response to discovering I was an Australian in a ski less that wasn’t my first lesson.  The first lesson will teach you how to survive the mountain more lessons will teach you how to ski and control the mountain.

Apparently, Australians in Switzerland, had a reputation for being terrors on the slopes because they did one or two classes and thought that’s all there was to skiing.  Unfortunately, it just made them dangerous to others … and not very popular – skiing wise.

This is where I think Morality can be a good thing.  I want to build my website and I’d like to be doing it properly.  Not because I want to conform and be constrained, it’s because I want to be efficient.

No-thingness appears in the same position as on Day 3.  The events from today were also borne out from potential.  Two days ago was Sunday and when I start an exercise regime it’s usually started on a Monday. That’s when I made the decision I had to exercise.

The Recent Past with The Miser in this position may resemble the fact that I had previously been stingy with my exercise.  Also I’m probably too cheap to pay for a gym when my argument is that if I can’t get myself motivated at home, how is a gym going to be any different?

That brings us to the Future Energy which has another one of my favourite cards Mind – not!  Luckily for me I did not really notice this card at the beginning of the day because it usually means mental turmoil. The Mind card itself is enough to induce the very situation it describes.  Not noticing taught me that it doesn’t always have to be that, today my Mind was possibly simply a reflection of my headache.

That makes the next card easy to work out Healing.  Certainly I felt that getting acquainted with the couch was a method of healing.  I could not do much except binge watch something.

Now I’m not sure how the Projections card is to be interpreted.  Based on what I said on day one, it’s about placing expectations upon another.  Does that mean that those are put on me by others?  Or am I doing that somehow with my healing?  Thinking on it, it’s probably the latter.  The only barometer I have is my own situation and therefore if I am feeling sorry for myself, I expect my husband to also do likewise :).

The Comparison card in the Hopes & Fears position is a caution against comparing myself to myself and others. For the last couple of days I have progressed quite nicely with my knowledge and in the background some future content.

Today was a quiet day by those standards and could be seen as disappointing.  The fear when seeing this “lack” of progress is that I will give-up.

The card gives me pause and makes me recite my current mantra “I am not them and they are not me, I need to let each of us be free”.  “Free” meaning free to each be ourselves without harsh judgment.  Just because I can guess at what someone might be thinking doesn’t mean the person will act upon it.  As Agatha Christie’s Hercule Poirot commented something along the lines of it being okay to kick a table when you are angry with someone but it is not the same as kicking the person.

Anyway, Schizophrenia card as the Outcome seems to indicate that I will be torn between a rock and a hard place.  Osho’s suggestion for overcoming the difficulty is to let go of both things at once.  Because I’m writing this at 11:00pm and the cards were done at 8:00am I can safely say that I was torn between doing little bits of work on the website while nursing my headache.

After five minutes of trying it became obvious that I was accomplishing nothing on the website and the thinking was delaying my headache from getting better.  Thinking seemed to make concentration all the harder.  This is what Osho’s Schizophrenia describes.

Did I mention I was stubborn?  Well, I can be. I persisted a little longer to try and do both but the third option of self-pity won out.  A good thing too, because I would have hated to miss writing this post.