Once again the day started with Possibilities in the Now.  I wonder whether this is how my day starts when I have great aspirations?  As we know from above there were many things I wanted to do, so let’s go with that.

A popular card this week is Schizophrenia My Influencer appears to be that old ‘rock and a hard place’ thing preventing.  The very nature of the card tells us that it’s a blocking card.

This could very well be the lack of being able to purchase the piece of equipment I wished to use today.  The one I had my eye on was sold out.  There were expensive versions available.  However, I’m not sure how much I am going to use this device or not.  Nor do I know if it’s going to be effective.

Part of me then thought that if I got a cheap one it wasn’t going to work really well and it wouldn’t be effective anyway.  Why isn’t this card called confusion?  So, looks like I discovered my rock and hard place – you can pick which is which.

In the end, I decided that I could work with out it and simply make do with what I had at home.  Only to discover that what I wanted to do wouldn’t have worked anyway!

It’s amazing that the Goal position has the card of No-thingness – or as I like to refer to it as ‘potential’.  Today, however I think nothing-ness is more appropriate.  It felt like I had not accomplished anything.  I wanted a blank slate.  Aha!  I remember I sent off payment to get my logo changed.  There’s potential to get something moving!  My goal lives!!!

The Distant Past card of Comparison had me stumped.  Although, I did pleasantly note that it had moved to this position.  Like a big, “phew”!  However, it just dawned on me that the reason I was frustrated not getting through my list of to-dos was because of the success of the other day. It all went so easy.  Perhaps refocussing on a vacation day helped me not be so hard on myself.

As for the Recent Past position the card of Turning In makes complete sense.  Yesterday, I recommenced meditating.  Meditating is a phase I go through.  For ages it worried me thinking that I would lose the discipline or the desire to meditate.

Trying to turn it into a habit.  But it’s a part of me.  I’ve been doing it and I enjoy meditating – even if it gets painful. I’m always glad I’ve taken the time to mediate, forced, disciplined or otherwise.

Another form of turning in for me is to do yoga.  I was still a bit sore from the other day’s reacquaintance with the practise – ouch!

Future energy position has the card of Playfulness. Apart from annoying the dishwasher today there wasn’t a lot of playfulness in the day.  There was dragging our second cat Valentine around on the bedside mat for a few twirls just to try and upset him.  Sadly, that failed he just purred happily and lay flat on his back for a pat.  Maybe it’s yet to come :).

The Feelings position regarding my situation of Possibilities not going to plan was/is Change. Osho Zen on the metaphysical level speaks of the cycles of highs and lows.  The patterns of joy and sorrow.  The Change card is about recognising the pattern and breaking it.  

It can also mean that there is a Change afoot.  Some inner change that will require assessment and a shift in perspective.  

Or it may be at that moment when I discovered that comparison between my productive day and expecting that today wasn’t going to be like that.  There was the potential, as I had said above that it was frustrating.  There certainly were elements of that but I resigned myself to treat the day as a vacation day instead of wallowing in the frustration.  Thus breaking the patterning.

The position of Other People’s Views holds the card of New Vision. Which means that other people see me as connecting with something that is “me”.  Let’s face it, the only person at this stage I can gauge that off is my husband.  That’s probably following yesterday’s Dobby story.  He’s also seen some of the other stuff I’ve been working on which may also present that impression.

Oh, the Hopes and Fears position is Participation. This could have so many meanings at the moment and to some extent they are probably all relevant.  However, to keep this concise.

I would really love to get some participation going with a feedback loop along the “like, subscribe, notification” kind of thing happening.  Apart from the fact that I would need to find a smart developer person to help me out with that.  It scares me too.  It’s kind when s*it gets real!

The Outcome position is Consciousness. The card is about crystal clarity on the mind.  Not having it flicker from place to place or being the inner undisciplined inner child that the mind can be.

Consciousness is a lovely card to end on, particularly around the clarity.  There is certainly some clarity around what I want to accomplish.  The lack of getting the equipment I thought I wanted has made me think of alternatives, that might in the short term work a little better.

My plan is to put up a page regarding the card layout tomorrow.  What I haven’t decided is whether I will post off the page to an editor to fix up or whether I will just subject you to it as is.  Let’s just see what happens.