Yesterday No-thingness was in the Now position and today it’s in the Influencer position.  Does this mean that yesterday’s situation is influencing how I started looking at today?  Let’s take a look.  

Intensity was the first card out and is placed in the Now position.  Interestingly, Intensity was also in yesterday’s reading but in the “how other people saw me” position.  Intensity is about setting your own boundaries and your own path.  It sometimes means ignoring good, sage or expert advice and trusting what you judge to be true and applicable to you.  This also means accepting responsibility for veering off the advised path. 

Just a quick disclaimer, for those who love me, it is not my intention to veer from medical advice – so don’t get nervous *smile*.

No-thingness was the second card and has appeared in the Influence position.  No-thingness or potential, is influencing or blocking my ability to connect with myself.  If read as a blocker, it would mean that there is so much potential that I am overawed by it.  

What was boundless optimism yesterday is perhaps too many options today.  This is certainly the case when it comes to writing and ideas on how to improve the website.  There was a moment during the day when I found some code on how to upload a font I like maybe it means going rogue with the theme coding?

Participation was the third card and is placed in the Goal position.  Participation, in the Osho deck, means embracing life and being a part of it.  Note, this card also appeared in yesterday’s reading but was in the Influence spot of position two. It has moved from simply influencing my potential to becoming a goal.

In the Goal position it means that I would like to get out and about and interact with people and has become a focus.  As mentioned yesterday, getting back to work and participating in, what I consider my normal life, has been on my mind.  Even while being a little on the scary side.  Today however, it was simply fulfilled by enjoying my own company (and that of my husband).

Control was the fourth card and was placed in the Distant Past position.  It’s image is of a very serious looking man and everything about the card speaks of inflexibility.  This inflexibility can form a basis for rebellion against myself or others.  

If I were to be honest with myself, and I am certainly trying to be with not only myself but also the readers of this blog, I felt deflated by the amount of time the medical profession advised that I would need to wear the cast.  It just seemed very inflexible to me.  Sadly, there’s very little I can do about that except to take care of myself in the way they have recommended.

The Dream has shown up in the Recent Past position and is card number five.  The Dream card is that of having romantic and/or unrealistic expectations of a particular scenario.  In this case, it might be my expectation that I will heal quicker than the professionals think. 

As mentioned from what I just wrote in the Distant Past position I was crestfallen when the six weeks of elevated foot was prescribed.  Stubbornly, I am still of the (possibly unrealistic) view that I will recover quicker than anticipated.

This unrealistic romantic notion makes way for a new Innocence.  Innocence is the card that appears in the Future Energy position and was card number six.  This position moves the reading from the known into what is likely.  The Dream may gain a measure of reality and appear as Innocence. Stripping back expectations and experiencing the circumstance with a pureness of heart instead.

It is important to make a distinction between innocence and naivety.  Naivety is the lack of experience.  The Osho deck clearly depicts and elderly person beneath the heading of Innocence. Showing the man certainly has experience but he has shed expectations.  He engages the interaction with a praying mantis with pureness of heart. 

Position seven is about the Feelings I have toward Intensity.  Card seven today is Suppression.  Suppression of Intensity or in other words, suppression of my own path and vision.  This is about the healing process or my frustration about it.  Is there a part of me that might be feeling like going rogue? Definitely.  But how? Everything the medical professionals have said on what I need to do to heal makes sense to me – except maybe the six weeks.  For now, follow as required.

Oh dear.  I’m falling into the trap everyone falls into; seeking the quick fix.  

Perhaps, I simply cannot relate to this card at the moment.  Hmmm… having written that I don’t have any ideas about my health.  Could kinesiology do anything?  (No friends, it will not conflict with medical advice).

Other People’s Views is the eighth position and its card is The Creator.  The Creator is about connecting to the source within and manifesting its radiance outward.  Considering I spent most of the day socialising with my mother and my husband, I’m uncertain of whether they think this or not.  So, I’m just going to let it drop there.

The ninth position is Hopes & Fears and Guilt is its card.  Guilt is the card that spells out the “damned if you do and damned if you don’t” situation.  Meaning that no matter the choice the result will have a toll in personal agony.  

It’s a strange card to have appear in the Hopes & Fears position but going with the “hope” aspect of the coin first.  I hope not to feel guilty about going my own way and healing the way I need to feel; sometimes this means that those around me find me frustrating and stupidly stubborn.  

As for the “fear” aspect, if I choose to go with suppression of my own way of doing things and pleasing those around me, I fear that I might manifest something else in my body.  Storing anger which might reveal itself in a misdirected situation at a later stage.  

Since today was a “mild” day, and my rebellion is minor – if any – I’m hoping that I’m not suppressing something meaningful from myself *smile*.

Today’s Outcome being position ten has Rebirth as its card.  Rebirth is about letting go of ego, letting go of the mind, washing away old ideas.  It’s the beginning of a new life or chapter – on a minor scale.  It’s one of those moments when you look back in years to come and realise that the fractured ankle was ages ago.

The fractured ankle will always be remembered together with the launching of the website My Soul Embrace.  There are a lot of tiny little learnings that amount to a major transformation that aren’t necessarily seen at the moment but appear only on reflection at a later date.